Grateful

There are times when I wonder, “If I go without such-and-such a thing for X months, how much money would I save?” I then do some mental calculations and determine that I could afford that thing that I’m currently wanting. Of course, this is always a pointless exercise as it involves giving up such things as power and gas during winter. Perhaps I could go without internet for another month, but I’ve never really envisioned myself as a regular at McDonald’s. Not that I eat there, as I bought one meal and it cost nearly 7 Euro. Better than American McDonald’s, but not by that much.

As a kid from a well-off family I think I suffer from some form of White guilt, (As if every rich white person feels ashamed of their excessive lifestyle – or should, assuming they live excessively) in that I feel that I am in such a positive position due more to my financial support than my own efforts. Could I be where I am without my family’s support? No way. But have I grown into the man I am solely because of gifts I have been blessed with? No.

I view my position in life in comparison to those who have the least. “Am I homeless or in poor health? Then maybe I should stop desiring all those luxuries I think I can’t live without. Plenty of people would love to have what you have.” I like to imagine that this line-of-thought helps keep me down to Earth.

No need to go without things for money. I just need to be grateful. Now if you excuse me, I’m going to enjoy the can of goulash that I warmed over 5 candles.